Tuesday, September 22, 2020
My Dear Husband, Pepe:
One year has now passed since you went away. Yet the lyrics to the song Where Are You? constantly invade my thoughts.
“Where are you? Where have you gone without me?”
Being without you is a pain that I could never have imagined in a million years, and I remain in a cloud of profound bereavement. But I forcibly bring myself to the realization that I was blessed beyond belief to have you in my life and I will continue to find comfort in the beautiful memories you left me.
From the moment you walked through the door and into my life, from the moment we laid eyes on each other, you gave me respect and then admiration, and then love. A love that came with such intense devotion that it defied belief. How I wish now that I had welcomed and accepted it immediately instead of doubting and questioning. So much time wasted, which is my one regret about us. It was totally my fault, of course, but you persisted. Continuing to love me and care for me with patience and determination until I finally arrived at a comfortable place of acceptance about us. And I eventually came to realize that you were right when you said: “We’ve been on our way to each other for all of our lives. We were destined to connect & be together.”
Then on July 18, 2014 in Beverly Hills, California, you proudly gave me your name. Which I will continue to wear forever.
Until we meet again my beloved,